Eid Is Here!

To our beloved family, friends and acquaintances, Have a Blessed Eid. Please forgive our wrongdoings and lets pray that we live another year for Ramadhan Al Mubarak!

The 'another day' had come and gone. I was better today than I had been the last few days since I started my menses. The hormone had finally settled down, I think! My appetite is less fierce and the cravings are more manageable and kept banked. The weight had gone down to 64.3 this evening and not strayed beyond 65kg. Thank You ALlah!

For iftar today, we bought 2 packets of beriyani, a murtabak and fried chicken from our neighborhood-friendly Mamak shop. I had 1/3 of the murtabak minus the skin, lots of the salad (cucumber, pineapple, mango, onion)and 2 slices of the kuih bakar MG had kindly packed for me this morning. Hopefully that would be all I eat tonight and maybe another apple later before I go to bed. I drank lots of plain water, coffee with stevia and milk; and green tea as well.

It is the 29th night of Ramadhan. I am sad because Ramadhan is leaving us so soon. This year I really felt that time just flew by in a blink of an eye.I face the coming Eid with mixed emotion, spritually as well as diet-cally! Eid is a religious occasion which has a festive air about it, and that means lots and lots of food! High starch and sugar kind of food. It really will be a challenge for me to go through this one week without overeating. Well, lets hope the buffer I have had with this Hcg diet will help me through this.

Have a blessed Eid! Eat as healthily as you can!

Off the track by a million miles!

I started fasting again today. Thank You, Allah for small mercies. The weight had crept up to 65kg. A number I had not seen for sometime now. The binging! All that sugar and starch!

Yesterday's iftar was at my in-law's place in PD.Mee Kari! I made them. Coconut gravy, lots of vegetables and a few protein source. I had 2 bowlful. It was good (even if i say so myself!) and that was my first 'proper' carbohydrate meal since stabilization and I am so going to pay for it for the rest of my life! And today, suicidally I made Kuih ketayap. A Malay delicacy which consists of flour based crepe wrapped around coconut cooked with palm sugar filling!I had a few of those... Yeah I know... I keep whining but I never stopped myself, right? Suicidal is right!

coconut cooked in palm sugar filling wrapped with flour based crepe!

Introducing starch and sugar slowly is no easy feat. Although I have decided to eat the way I ate in Maintenance for a while, just the fact that you are allowed those two taboos, is enough to venture into 'debauchery' as MG put it. It is so abundant and so available!

Well, tomorrow is another day, lets hope I do better and stay on track! Aminnnn.

Hungry Like A wolf!

I gave up! I tried sleeping, staying out of the house, drinking gallons of water + acv, exercising, locking myself in my room but to no avail. I am still very ,very hungry! I have had periods before and had been ravenous before but nothing like this! So much so, I took a saucer and filled it up with whatever cookies (chocolate chips, pineapple tarts, crunchy oatmeal cookies) that I had a hankering for and sat down at the kitchen table with a tall glass of ice water and had my fill. Of course, once that stupid idiotic lust had been fulfilled I felt really stupid and also like throwing up. But it did the trick and I stopped wanting to eat for at least 4 hours after that. I am such a glutton!

My next meal was around 630pm when I fed my two tots with the Mee Goreng Mamak I made for iftar. The noodles stir fried with chili, eggs, shrimp and lots of vegetables did nothing for me though. Neither does my Fish in chili sauce. I just ate the left over vegetables my kids wouldn't eat and had a glass of warm green tea for dinner. I am still superfull. Most probably from the sugar overload with the cookies.

I am hoping to fast tomorrow. Maybe its wishful thinking as my period usually runs on for about 5-6 days but I can still hope and pray, right? Not just for stopping my eating binge but also to grasp whatever is left of this Ramadhan! 

How was your iftar? Hope it wasn't as calorie-leadened as it was mine!

Hormone Alert!

My appetite seems to be extraordinarily voracious today. I could understand the extreme thirst as I am having my period as of yesterday but what could be the reason of such a gargantuan appetite? 

Hormone! What else could it be? It has always been like this for me, especially if I am having particularly heavy flow. Somehow the body is trying to replace whatever is loss in some way or other. I gained almost a kilo today making my current weight 64.3kg. And here I was thinking, I'd be happy if I never see the number 64 again but it was not meant to be. I am happy nonetheless, as it is at the lower range of my LDW during transition which was 65.1. Lets hope I can keep it down once this spell of the month is over.I keep looking at the newly size S kebarung I bought for Eid. Let THAT be enough motivation for me eh?!

How is your preparation for Eid coming along, friends? I am hoping to make this as memorable and fun as possible for my two toddlers. The celebration of Eid after a month long fasting is something I want them to love and grasp the right concept of. 

Have a blessed night all!

Stabilization : ME against MYSELF

I do not think I am going to have any problems eating during this Stabilization phase, I took to rice like a duck to water. I had the nasi impit for sahur this morning, two slices with the kuah lodeh, lots and lots of water and ACV. Then for iftar today, I did the suicidal thing and cooked rice in coconut milk (nasi lemak), chilli prawn, deep fried chicken again and lots of cucumber for ulam. I had 3 spoonful of the nasi lemak, 1/2 a chicken breast and lots of anchovies and a spoon of the prawn's chili. I also had some left over curry puff I made yesterday and some banana fritters. I think I must have overshot my daily calories requirement. I was eating like there would be no tomorow!

My period is here which partly explained my gargantuan appetite, plus I had a few guests over too. Yup, the usual excuse for over-eating! I am now feeling like a recently fed anaconda and is recumbent while typing this. Disgusting, right???

Well, I have to get up to prepare sahur anyway, so I hope I will not eat too much during sahur. and make matters worst! 

Stabilization : Just ME against MYSELF!

Lets stay healthy, friends!

1! - I have a plan!

Less than 24 hours to go to end my Maintenance phase. I am not really excited about it for I view eating now with some form of trepidations. Eating with no guidelines that is. After this, I must introduce sugar and starch slowly to my daily dietary intake. I have done without it for (roughly, cheating not counted) 49days and i haven't missed the bulk of it like rice or pasta. What I do miss is bread, whole meal ones. I told MG the first thing I am going to make that contain carbohydrate proper will be a sardine sandwich! Hehe, of all the things in the world! 

I hope and pray that I will maintain a healthy and balanced diet after this and will not gorge nor bow to any more gluttony in the future. My daily calories requirement will be 1913kCal and my basal metabolic rate is 1234kcal. If I want to shed the last few kilos to reach my ideal body weight of 59-62kg, I will have to reduce the calories intake and increase my activities (calories expenditure). Cest la Vie!  Eat moderately and eat regularly, chew slowly, include variety, exercise regularly and weigh myself daily. There! Does that sound like a plan?

I am having  a few guests over for Iftar today and have already made Nasi Impit, Kuah Lodeh, Sambal Kacang and I have the chicken marinating in my fridge to be deep-fried later. I also made Epok Epok Sardin (yes,Sardines is one of my favorite thing!) and later will make watermelon smoothie. I will just have the Kuah Lodeh with the fried chicken for Iftar and tomorrow for sahur will have the Nasi Impit as an introduction to rice (carbohydrate) again.

I don't know whether to continue this blog post Hcg diet. It has served its purpose and me well. A good place to rant and rave and let my frustrations out. I hope it has help others who read it as much as it had helped me!

 Selamat berbuka puasa, friends!